There should be word, somewhere between disillusionment and touching down to reality, that describes the experience of someone you’ve long admired on the internet turning into an ordinary person. Because getting to know someone through bylines in beautifully designed online lit mags, a posed and composed and DSLR-lensed profile photo, or tweets of bon mots does not give you access to the things that become immediately obvious when you glance at a body. There are many things we hide when putting the best foot forward online, but they are much harder to hide in our gait or how our legs are folded under a chair or the pattern our eyes make in scanning across the room.